This is the part where my mind goes blank. What am I about, what am I into? The second that questions like that start circling through my head, everything else goes out the window. Best start with the basics and work my way up, I reckon.
So, as the title suggests, I have Asperger’s and am therefore on the Autistic Spectrum. Because of where I sit on said Spectrum, my behaviour has often been described as being… weird. Which, for most regular folk, is true. To them, I was weird. But on the flipside of that, I found them particularly weird. And, in the case of school, utterly repulsive and not worth the time. I did not have a particulary happy childhood, you may already be able to tell.
What else is good to talk about? Hobbies! Perfect, I have at least one. The more creative of which is writing. Reading and writing had always been an interest of mine but through ignorance and a lack of direction, I let that passion slowly wither. Now, with more time to think and reflect, I’m trying to reclaim some of that passion and creative energy. Will I be successful? Sadly, no one knows. That’s part of what this blog is about, to a degree.
The next hobby that springs to mind is Photography. I kept seeing these beautiful images on social media and felt a pull, something telling me that I wanted to try that. So, the old camera came out. I tinkered and practiced, then took the plunge and bought an entry level DSLR. Taking photos of random things became a favoured past time. Then, the last couple of years happened and the chances to get out with the camera lessened as the days went on. I never considered myself good but I took quite a few shots that I was happy with and that was enough for me.
Right, let’s see about getting more in depth. I suffer with Depression and some level of anxiety. Sadly, they go hand in hand with Autism. Just a great way of making things just that little bit harder to handle. But, handle it I do, because you gotta keep on keeping on, am I right? Like many that suffer with this, my emotional and mental state has been all over the place, up and down like a rollercoaster. But, with the right tools, a balance can be found. I recommend Mindfulness personally, it’s helped to keep me centered more than once.
A slightly odder revelation that only recently came about. I’m pretty certain I’m a Nihilist. I find a strange comfort in believing that, one day, death comes for us all and we only get given the one life. You can go through life and affect everything or nothing. No matter which way you swing it, we’re all going to die and in the far future, our lives will be but a footnote in the history of our random existence on this rock hurtling through space. But that’s okay. All we can do is take control of the life we have and make ourselves happy. Just because the inevitable comes doesn’t mean we have to be miserable about it.
I think that covers the highlights, for now. Knowing me, I’ll think of something to add later on. But for now, thank you for visiting my corner of the internet, have yourself a lovely day.